Random shitty down-on-myself thought

When I have a pregnancy scare, he opts for an abortion, but has no problem having a baby with his last ex-wife who is apparently a psycho bitch that turned a complete 180° when he puts a ring on her finger.

Just a random shitty thought on a random Tuesday night.

Drumroll please...

Ta da! Here I am again to update you on the fabulously hectic, busy, and un-busy parts of the modeling lifestyle. Again, my apologies for being a slacker and not writing as often as I should. I swear, I have the best of intentions, but sometime lack the motivation to follow through. Ok, more often than sometimes, you got me!

Where did we leave off...? Ah yes! April-ish. Well folks, for the latter half of the month of April, there wasn't much going on in the modeling arena for me, but I did have my fair share of interviews for a new day job (none of which pulled thru, sadly). I suppose there was one kind-of sort-of could be counted event: Subversive II, where several of my musically talented DJ buddies (DJ Prophecy, Indaskyes, Facemelter, & Traxmyth) provided the soundtrack for an AMAZING evening. Well done you guys!!

A candid of Laura, Denny, and me @ Subversive II

The month of May was also slow on the modeling front, but plenty of social things going on after the day job: a birthday weekend in Vegas, HEDpe concerts, a trip to LA for out of town friends, and TWO trips to Kansas for TWO different weddings!!

June was all about motorcycles for Reesuh. I had a last minute audition after work on the 3rd, and was surprised to hear that they selected me to be a promo model (Tork Angel) for Tork's Motorsports in Point Loma. The photoshoot was the following evening, so needless to say that Friday was a 19 hr day for me!!

The following day was the monthly MayStar Fashion Whore show, where I was a model for Molly B Bikinis. I'm fairly new to the fashion industry, but I've been around long enough to realize that these things NEVER start on time - there's always something we're waiting on, and you just have to roll with it. I've also noticed that lots of girls can't stand to wait. But hey, shit happens - bitching won't make time move any faster!

Tork's grand opening event was on Father's Day, but there was still a pretty decent crowd that turned out. From the pictures that were taken that day I saw that I'm super pale, I mean pasty white!! I've just never been big on tanning beds, so I bought some tanning lotion that probably would've worked if I didn't do Bikram Yoga. The lotion stayed on when I would shower, but during yoga I sweat liters, and it came right off onto my towel - who would've known??

Kelly, Katie, and me - Tork Angels

And so, that brings us to July, when I got to shoot with the amazingly talented Victor Ciccarelli and his wife Lynn. They painted me green for a pin-up monster corset shoot; I felt so much like Elphaba from the musical Wicked. I even started to sing "Defy Gravity" while Lynn & Vic were painting me. When Vic was ready to paint my face, he looked at me and said "Tell me 'fuck you Vic'." I'm not a mean person, so I couldn't say it at first, but when I starting joking around and said it in a harsh tone, he took the paint brush and stuck it in my ear. It was like the grossest wet willy EVER!! I squealed, but the sound I made was a sound I've never heard myself make before. He just laughed and said "that's my favorite part!" ha! ha! What a prankster. All that weird paint in my ear was really worth it though. Vic & Lynn turned me into a real Monster Pin-up model:

Monster Corset Pin-up for Isabella Corsetry

Afterward, Vic graciously helped me bring some of my Oil Spill images to life. Ever since the disaster in the gulf, I've had an idea for a shoot in my mind - and I've also been wanting to voice some of my political opinions using my modeling for some time. Vic helped make that a reality.

Later in July, I was one of those annoying people handing out cards at ComiCon. A friend of a friend needed promo models, and since it was a paying gig, I accepted. The first day I worked near the Scott Pilgrim display, handing out cards for $10 off a Tshirt online, and I had a blast. The crowd at ComiCon consists of fun, clever, nerdy people (like me) who are easy to approach and bullshit with. I even made a group of friends from SF, Team Awesome as I called them. The next day I passed out the same cards but for Hello Kitty. The best part about this gig was that it paid, & I got 2 pretty awesome shirts out of the deal too.

That brings us up to August. I haven't had any modeling gigs yet this month, but I've applied to a few castings / postings. I did, however, have my first belly dancing lesson with the one and only Sakti Renik, a famous Egyptian Belly Dancer who has been dancing for over 30 yrs!! I had a lot of fun, and surprised myself with a few moves. After my 90 minute lesson, Sakti told me that she had given me the intermediate class, and that I was a natural. I feel so special - and it kind of makes me want to find a Belly Dancing group here in SD to keep practicing with. But I love my yoga too much to give it up, and my schedule is already demanding enough as it is.

So there you have it guys and dolls - the hectic, busy, yet un-busy life of me. Oh, but that reminds me: this month I'm competing to be Miss September in the 2011 calendar for Poker Centerfolds. PLEASE register at this link (Poker Centerfolds), then click on Calendar Girls, and vote for Risa. It's easy!! But you have to register first or your vote doesn't count. And PLEASE tell your friends to do the same - I need all the help I can get here.

You can check out my photos for the contest HERE.

Thank you a million times over for reading my silly updates, for caring enough to stop by, and for always supporting me.

2010 update - January to now!

I'm such a slacker. I started a blog to keep people up-to-date (people who wanted to know anyway) and I completely dropped the ball.


JANUARY:
Several shoots and auditions this month! Auditioned for the Xtreme GoGo team Los Angeles and was accepted, which lead to 2 team photoshoots. Got to meet the rest of the girls, and they're all great people and amazing dancers. Can't wait to start doing team GoGo gigs in LA/OC with these lovely ladies.

Xtreme Girls - photo by Daniel Padova

Also auditioned for a new reality show (Runway Chronicles) and was accepted to do that as well, even though I'm too short to do traditional runway, or so I'm told. This little project got me into my first ever runway show in February (more on that soon), and rehearsals took place throughout January.

Shot with Neesh of LA Wicked Photography at the end of the month and did some implied pics. I was super nervous about this, but I think they turned out alright.



FEBRUARY:
More rehearsals for Runway Chronicles, and then finally my debut at the MAGIC Fashion Convention in Las Vegas. If I were into fashion at all, I would've known this was a big deal from the beginning. But being the tomboy (and country girl) that I am, I didn't realize how epic MAGIC is to the fashion industry. I was a model for Anama, a clothing line based out of Miami, and was the feature of the sexiest fashion show at MAGIC! There was actually a lot of drama involved on that trip - no wonder models have a reputation for being pretentious bitches!! - but there were also a lot of awesome moments. I bonded with quite a few people of the cast and crew and can't wait to work with them all again some day.

Niki, me, and Phoenix - on our way to the Convention Center to work for Anama

MARCH:
At the beginning of the month, I completed a 3-day "gogo bootcamp" for the Xtreme Girls. I have to take this time now to say "THANK YOU" to my OC friends who let me crash at their pads during all of this back-and-forth from SD to OC or LA. Without you guys (James, Alan, Jay, Jacques...) I would be so broke paying for gas or hotels, or would have undoubtedly fallen asleep at the wheel. You're all wonderful for putting me up for the night in a spare bedroom or on the couch.

March was a slow month for me in modeling, but busy in everything else! I went to Vegas (again) to hang out with some High School friends I haven't seen in years, and also enrolled in a 4-week Broadway Burlesque class at Fun Pole Fitness. Marie, the owner, and Jenn, the teacher, are such fun and wonderful ladies, and the rest of the women there were so friendly and happy. It was a great experience and I learned a fun burlesque routine!

The last Sunday of the month I drove 3 hours north to meet the most kickass group of girls and the awesome Edwin (EVolve Photography) in Camarillo for an all day shoot. We got three outfit changes and did some group shots - I can't wait to see the pics (but I need to select my favorites and send them to Edwin first!!). Lisa Michelle, Mary Jane, Danielle and Pamela Jean are all gorgeous & talented models - and Edwin kills it with his camera every time! I'm so lucky to know such beautiful, and down-to-earth, girls who work in this industry too.

In fact, we had such a great time in Camarillo, we all want to do another group shoot soon! Hopefully all of our schedules can line up again; so far there's been no such luck.


APRIL:
2 fashion shows this month so far! The first was MayStar's monthly Fashion Whore show at the Ruby Room in Hillcrest. This particular show was themed "EuroTrash." I modeled for Miss Alphabet clothing (Liz) and had a blast! Quite a few of my girl friends were modeling for another designer, Trish, and it was a pleasant surprise to see familiar faces when I walked in the door.

That night I met several new girls, a kickass MUA, and some great photographers too. I'm hoping to get something set up with one (or more) of these new connections. Networking is so much fun!

Taken by RFXPhoto, makeup: MercyTobel, wardrobe: Miss Alphabet

The following Saturday I was in Fullerton for a Rock 'n Roll Fashion Show, modeling for the lovely Emily of Into the Woods Clothing. As a 5'2" model who was told she could never do runway or fashion, this was my 3rd show in 2 months. Makes me feel good to know that some folks are full of shit.


And that's basically it for now! Nothing really on the horizon at the moment, but my social/personal life is packed. Next month I'm out of state almost every weekend: Vegas for a bday, and flying back to Kansas twice for weddings. I'll write more often about modeling stuff from now on, I promise!

Thanks for keeping up with me
xo

No bueno

Today there was a message waiting for me on MySpace from a guy that I don't know. This is not unusual, but his email was. Simply put it read:

"Aww, it's kind of sad when an average-looking girl is trying really hard to be a model. I don't think it's ever gonna happen for you, champ..."

I don't know this guy or anything about him, and after I got over the initial sting of an insult (or maybe what he intended to be just really harsh constructive criticism??) one question was nagging at me. I wonder why people feel that spreading negativity is productive and/or necessary? Insults never improve anyone's life or thinking. So what compels someone to think and voice hurtful things?

Lately I've heard a great deal about haters, and I just don't understand it. One girl I know won't shut up about how much she can't stand a certain actress and her dress at the Oscars, only for the reason that she feels she prettier than that actress. Another friend of mine has had to deal with rumors started about her that are filled with malice and dishonesty, while yet another friend of mine who models (and is quite successful) deals with hate mail on a daily basis. Even friends in the Bay Area who are plugged into the music scene have to deal with this seething abhor-ation.

Really folks??? Is your life that empty or lacking focus & direction that you want to inflict pain and negativity on people around you, and also on people you don't even know??? I understand if you're not a fan of someone's pictures, or music, or art form, but there's no need for anger and negativity.

Support what you love, don't tear down others for doing what they love just because it doesn't appeal to you. Isn't that what humanity is supposed to be doing anyway - doing what makes you happy as a person (so long as it doesn't harm others)?

I may not be a successful model, or even a great one, but who am I hurting by taking what some people might call mediocre pictures? Right now, I'm enjoying what I do and I'm happy with my life, and I'll walk my path because it's mine... no one else's.

2010 - the start of something amazing?

Wow - I can't believe my last post was in November! Where did the time go???

Basically December was a slow month for modeling, but there were some awesome events nonetheless.

For almost 2 weeks, I was the featured model on GuitarSpy.com - my first website feature!!
Myke shot me in a studio in Corona, and my lovely friend Crystal came down to do my makeup. Once I saw the final images, I was ecstatic! I think they all turned out fantastic, and I must admit I had a lot of fun shooting with Myke and his guitar. For some reason I think that I could do a great job of modeling with props (and part of me wants to see if I can pursue something with Coffin Case!!).

Also, I took a road trip to Venice Beach with my photographer Van Cleave and another SD model Mikayla Micheals, to shoot with Ray at West Bred clothing and more of his girls. The entire afternoon was a great experience, and we're hoping that Ray can use some of the images to print up posters, flyers, or even a calendar.



So far this month, I've got two pretty awesome gigs on the table. I don't want to give away too much information, since nothing has been signed and no money has changed hands, but hopefully I can de-brief you soon enough.

Tuesday I have an audition to be apart of Xtreme GoGo Los Angeles... now if I can only scrounge up the gas money to make the trip up to Orange... Thanks for checking in with me - hopefully I have some amazing news to share with you soon!

xo

Crazy Busy!

Wow - where to start?? This weekend is definitely a modeling weekend for me! I love staying busy with this, because it means I'm getting my name out there, and I'm constantly networking wherever I go. Plus, I really appreciate the experience and it's a trip to see how my modeling is improving, even though I've only really been pursuing it since May (and let's not forget that I took myself out of the loop for several weeks back in August...).

Here's a rundown of how my weekend is set up:

FRIDAY
I'll be working as a featured promo model at the party in Lake Elsinore. Doors are at 8.30pm, so get there early!

(new info added to flyer)


Saturday
I have a photoshoot in Beverly Hills at the same mansion that I shot for Kasanova Magazine back in Oct. This is a test shoot, where I'll be shot by multiple photographers which should really enhance by portfolio! I'll try to remember to take my own personal camera and get some "behind the scenes" pics for you!

Sunday
Headed down to Corona for a shoot with Myke for GuitarSpy.com. The wonderful Crystal (MissMUA) will be there to get me all dolled up. I'm excited that I'll be doing my first shoot for a website AND with a guitar, but I'm also stoked that Crystal will be there. She's amazing!



Sheesh! I'm tired already, but I love that things are picking up!! Now, you'll have to excuse me as I need to start packing for this weekend already. And I need to remember to bring a ton of my cards - don't want to be caught without them!!

xo

West Bred Clothing

Sunday I had a last minute shoot - and I mean last minute! My photographer and I set it up no more than 24 hrs before we started shooting. Ray at West Bred Clothing sent me some shirts, and since all my November weekends are already booked up, Troy & I decided to get the shoot done ASAP.

We went to Chicano Park because that place has tons of wall art and would make for some awesome backgrounds. I got to wear my kick-ass new Skull & Roses heels from missconstrued.com and we got some really great shots. Since we were outside, we did draw a bit of an audience. When we were doing the booty shorts pics, a truck with 2 guys drove by 3 times. It was border-line creepy...

Troy has an amazing turn-around; he got the images to me yesterday! You can see the rest of the images on my Facebook page or on West Bred's page. Support Ray at West Bred!! He's a great guy!

Here's my favorite pic from Sunday:

And speaking of how busy November is, here's a run down of this month: This weekend I'm headed to LA for a film festival. The composer for Dim Light invited me to the screening, and I'm pretty excited - this is my first film festival! Hope that I get some networking done and I think I'm going to have a great time.

Next weekend is crazy busy too! What are you doing next Friday? Come out and see me!

Friday, November 20th @ Club Underground in Lake Elsinore - ALL AGES - GET THERE EARLY!!


And Sunday 11/22 I'll be doing a shoot for GuitarSpy.com - Myke wants me to be a featured model. I'm also excited, not only for that shoot, but also because I'll get to see Crystal again (MissMUA). She's agreed to do my makeup that day.

That's it for now! You better believe I'll keep this thing updated with more news and more images as they come in. Thanks are in order to you, dear reader, for your support... or your boredom. Either way, I hope you keep checking in on me. :)

Kasanova After Dark

The Kasanova Halloween party on Friday was a great experience!! I was a real Kasanova Kitten, and got to pick out my own outfit, which was accented with body paint and cat ears. All the girls there were chill and so far from stuck up. That really makes a difference when you get to a gig and everyone there is lame and bitchy as opposed to laid back and nice.

Quite a few people showed up for this little shin-dig, and I was impressed with the fact that almost everyone who attended came in costume! I met a WWII Fighter Pilot, Jack in the Box, a Vam-pirate (a guy dresssed as Jack Sparrow, but with vampire teeth), a Geek, several Priests, Billy the Penguin, Cheech & Chong, and many many more! I was even invited to go to the Halloween party at the Playboy mansion the next day, but I ended up bowing out. I wasn't really sure if the invite was legit - could they really want little ol' me there?? seriously?? - and I had already promised several friends that I would be with them on the 31st. So, I'd like to think that I took the path of better karma, and if I'm supposed to visit Heff's one day, then one day I will.

Big props to the Madison sisters and Terence of Kasanova Magazine for asking me to help host this event, and for organizing the party! I think it's safe to say that everyone there had a great time, and all the girls looked amazing.

You might remember that in October I did a shoot for Kasanova up in Beverly Hills - maybe you'll see me as Kitten of the Month sometime next year. Who knows?

xo



Kasanova After Dark! (I'm in there at 1:50 - with the Vampirate)

Insomnia means an update

Well, since it's 2 o'clock in the morning, and I can't sleep, might as well be productive, eh? There are a few things that have happened since I last wrote, so I thought I'd update the internet on the goings-on of a part-time model.

On September 20th I went to a casting at a mansion in Studio City, and I was introduced to the cliche Hollywood world. This was a unique experience for me, and I don't regret going, but it made me grateful that I'm a girl with morals and self-respect, and also proud that I'm doing everything I can to provide for myself and not use my looks or my youth to get ANYTHING from men. It was a pretty cool opportunity to network, though - and I got to meet a fellow yogi by the end of the evening.

Most of the other girls there were stuck up, but there were two chicks who were nice, and two guys my age who were fun to talk to, Jay & Jacques. Everyone else at the party was an old(er) man, probably all very wealthy and very, um.... unconventional. I'll be polite, because I don't judge others - I just know that their way of life doesn't appeal to me in the slightest.

There were quite a few photographers there, and I hope that some awesome shots came out. I've only received a few so far, and unofficially at that, but here's one of my favorites:


I'm really hoping I get to see the rest of them. And soon!!!

A while ago, a start-up clothing company out of LA hit me up on MySpace and asked if I'd be interested in modeling for them. I checked out their site and liked what I saw, so why not? Maybe they'll do pretty well, and I'll be in on the ground level - or maybe I can help them sell more clothes just by being involved - or maybe it would just help add clothing pics to my portfolio. Either way, I'm now a model for West Bred Clothing, and the guy who did my motorcycle shoot, Troy Van Cleave, said he would take photos of me for the company. Right now, they're just asking their models to take typical MySpace pics of themselves in their clothes - like, take a pic of yourself in your mirror with your digital camera. Um.... no thanks.

When I met with Troy to discuss this, we started to brainstorm big time! Looks like sometime next month we're going to trek up to LA for a full blown shoot with Ray at West Bred Clothing and any of his models that he can get to show up. Troy and I also talked about the possibility of printing up some of the Harley pics he took of me and selling them. I've had a few friends ask if they could either get an autographed picture, or a poster of a picture, which was very cool and very supportive of them. I even told Troy about the uncertainty I'd been dealing with, and how I didn't know if I was good enough to even ASK to be paid for shoots. He made my day when he said "oh yeah, you could get paid easily." So, now I have a base rate! :) I'm just waiting on someone to ask me what it is. ha! ha!

My next excursion was October 1st. I took the day off from my day job to make the trip up to Corona to (FINALLY) shoot with my agency's photographer: Edwin (Evolve Photography). We shot at Esther's house, and I got to meet some great people. Crystal did my hair and make-up, and she is such an amazing MUA (http://www.modelmayhem.com/MissMUA), and Edwin is a phenomenal photographer. Esther's friend Monica showed up too and helped to coach my poses and facial expressions. The whole experience was a little intimidating - I was surrounded by professionals!! - but it was so exciting.

Here's an unedited shot from last Thursday:


I can't believe I'm really doing this...... pursuing modeling and actually getting somewhere, no matter how slow my progress. And I finally booked a PAID gig!! Friday Oct 30th I'll be working a party in downtown SD for Kasanova Magazine, and I'll get paid for it! FINALLY!!! :) :) :)

And lastly, my most recent adventure was a few days ago. Sunday I drove to Beverly Hills to do a photoshoot for Kasanova Magazine - I think I'm now a Kasanova Kitten. The shoot was at this ridiculously superfluous mansion (does anyone know who Micheal Scott is?? 'cos I don't and it was his house) - I mean this place had everything: a pool, 2 hot tubs, a steam room, a mineral bath, a 2 bd/2 bath pool house, a game room, a bowling alley, a basketball/tennis court, a SAND volleyball court, an aviary, a waterfall... shit was insane!!! And guess who I meet while I'm there? Edwin!! I come to find out that he shoots regularly for Kasanova Magazine, and I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw him there. Before that I was really nervous, but seeing him there made me feel more comfortable.

I'm not expecting to see those images anytime soon, but when I do (or rather, IF I do) I'll be sure to direct my small online audience to them.

So, for now, the only thing I've got coming up is a shoot for West Bred Clothing and I'll schedule that with Troy as soon as Ray sends me some threads. Then, it's the Kasanova Halloween party in downtown San Diego, but who knows what could happen between now and then?

Uncertainty

Well, no matter what your path in life, or what tasks you choose to accomplish, or what goals you set for yourself, I think it's safe to say that everyone goes thru a period of self-doubt and questioning. It's normal, and a natural part of life.

This industry is new to me - and extremely competitive! Over the past month, I've had a lot of doubts about myself and started to think that I'm wasting my time with this modeling thing. Looking at the girls who are really making it in the business made me realize that I'm not like them. I've got that "girl next door" look - and I'm proud of that - but it makes it more difficult to find modeling gigs because I'm not exotic, and I'm not tall, and I don't have gigantic boobs.

Also, I've got some morals and boundaries. Since I'm not willing to do nude photos or any naked concepts, that really narrows down the number of gigs that are available to me. Throw in a full-time job from Monday to Friday, and that limits my availability to even go to shoots or events. And one day, I saw another girl's modeling photos and they were 2 steps away from pornography... I was disgusted. Then I wondered if any of my photos could be interpreted in that way, which is something I do not want. I've really tried to maintain a classy look because I'm not a whore and I don't want to be considered one. But would the average person looking at my portfolio images think poorly of me? I really hope not - that's not a label that I want or deserve.

In addition to this, the agency I've signed with hasn't found me any work. I want to believe that it's because of my schedule or that I haven't shot with her photographer yet, but I couldn't help but notice that she's been promoting girls who only have candid photos in her Agency Album. This album has no pictures of me - which made me think my photos aren't good enough, or my modeling isn't good enough, and that I'm wasting my time with this hobby and this industry. Let's face facts - I haven't gotten paid for one single event or photoshoot I've done. Not one. I don't even know if I'm good enough to ask to be paid for my time... To top everything off, a guy that I really care for used my modeling as an excuse for him to back off. My confidence in this endeavor was already wavering, and this just made me want to give it up for good. If it came down to choosing between someone who means a great deal to me, and a hobby that's already got me questioning my commitment, then I'd choose that person in a heartbeat - but sadly, that was not the case at all.

With all these doubts, I quit looking for work. I turned down a magazine shoot and 2 photographers (none of which would have paid). I deleted my modeling page from facebook. What's the point, right? Even though I know that people don't blow up in any industry over night, I really don't see myself ever being able to really make a name for myself, or at the very least get paid for a gig... I was doubting myself and my intentions with this endeavor.

One thing about this industry: if you don't believe in yourself, you damn sure won't go far at all. And lately, I don't know if I believe in me... But at the same time, I do not want to look back on my life when I'm 70 and regret not exploring an avenue that presented itself to me.

At this point, I'm uncertain and doubtful. Modeling has never been a passion of mine, and at times it seems pointless to pursue it. But maybe, just maybe, it's not a complete waste of time...

2 shoots in 2 days

The title says it all.
2 shoots. 2 days.
Crazy!

Monday after work I ran home to ready myself for a sunset beach shoot with B-foto, and then booked it to PB only to be greeted with cloudy skies. We agreed to try again the next day, and at a less crowded beach (La Jolla). Well, Tuesday come and the clouds still haven't lifted. Since Brandon is visiting SD from AZ, we decide to make the best of the overcast skies. Brandon was very professional, and told me that I have gorgeous eyes. Genuine compliments are the best!

After I get home, he emails me some of the shots he's already touched up. I was so impressed with how amazing he made me look!!



And there's more where that came from!! I just don't have them yet.

Today after work, I drove to Miramar to meet up with a local photographer so we could do a Harley shoot. I had several different outfits, and he kept saying the lighting was perfect. This was my first motorcycle/bike shoot, so I'm pretty jazzed to see the final result. I crouched near the bike, leaned on it, sat on it, laid down on it.... and even stood away from it. Ha!

After our shoot, he asked what other ideas I had, and I told him how I've always wanted to get some pics of just me on an empty road with these ridiculous hooker boots I have. As luck would have it, he knew of a dead-end paved road not far from where we were, so we headed over there and got a few more shots. On a stroke of genius, I had him help stand on one of the wooden posts that support the guard rail, and he said those shots looked awesome.

I can't wait to see them! This is what I love about modeling - having fun on a shoot, being spontaneous with poses, and seeing the final pictures. And after I do a shoot and see the photos, I always want to do another one so I can get more!

Shooting with two different guys in two days was a good learning experience. Brandon preferred that I moved around on my own between shots and I think we got some very natural & awesome pictures from that. But Troy had me hold a pose for a moment or two and would even make small adjustments to the angle of my head or the placement of my arm. I'm sure those two styles will show up in both of their respective photographs.

Outta-Control music video

Tonite after I got home from work and food with a good friend, I thought I'd check out the MySpace to see if that hip-hop group I did the music video for had any shows coming up. I didn't see any shows, but I did notice a new video they posted...the one I helped make!

I watched it, and I was impressed. I thought I'd embarrass myself since I'm very much a white girl and it IS a hip-hop song. But I think I look alright. I like the song too, and that afternoon was a lot of fun.

So, without further adieu, here it is:



Well... what do ya think??


Things have started to really get rolling for me lately. In the last 2 days I've booked two shoots for next week. One will be a sunset bikini shoot & the other will be a Harley shoot. I also booked a Sept shoot with Evolve Photography thru my agency, Queen E Modeling - I'm really looking forward to that. Edwin has quite the reputation for taking phenomenal photos! I'm also hoping a promo gig in Anaheim pulls thru for this weekend, and Kasanova magazine says they'd like to shoot with me, too. I can't help but get excited. Even if I'm not getting paid (yet), the way things are going is more than this country girl could've hoped for!

2009 Dean Girl contest

Just got the email - my pictures were approved for the 2009 Dean Girl contest!

But the only way I can win, is with your help! Click on the image below and vote for me. Pretty Please!!! :)

"The Difference"

Yesterday I was in my first music video (I really hope I didn't look too silly). It was for a local hip-hop group & their single "The Difference." I'll post the video here when it's done.

You can listen to the song on their MySpace:
http://www.myspace.com/outtacontroloct

The music video was just a candid backyard pool party video. I was one of only two models who showed up - about 5 of them flaked. Even though we weren't paid cash, we were definitely compensated for being there. Not only did we get food, but drinks were provided as well, and everyone who was there was chill. It was a very laid back afternoon.

After a few shots of filming different parts of the song in different parts of the backyard, it basically just turned into a regular ol' BBQ. The sun was going down before too long, and since I had a dinner date with Mr. & Mrs. Anghel at 8.30, I was the first to leave the par-tay.

Last Monday, I ordered myself some calling cards, and they came in the mail on Saturday. I'm pleased with how they turned out. I uploaded 10 of my modeling pics, and put my info on the back. I gave a few of them out at the party. Now modeling feels more official. :)

The Beginning

Well...you didn't ask for it, but here it is. A blog about my modeling experiences / shoots / ideas / and other things as well. This past week has been AMAZING - and amazingly busy!! Here's a break down of the goings-on so far:

Tuesday
I was so excited to get signed with Queen E Modeling Agency (by the gorgeous Queen Esther herself)!!! The first or second week of August I'm supposed to have a shoot with a fantastic LA photographer. I can't wait to see what she has in store for me!

Thursday
Attended a casting for Girls Gone Wild Magazine. If I get selected to be featured in an up-coming issue, I'll get a paid shoot in LA with hair and make-up provided. I know it's Girls Gone Wild, but the magazine is actually tasteful, and there's no nudity. Besides...it's a magazine!! If I can get published, that's an amazing feat for this small-town girl.

Friday
I worked as an IESB.net promo girl at the exclusive Wrath of Con party - the hottest VIP party of ComicCon 2009. This was my first promo gig, and I had a lot of fun. I ran into a girl from the GGW Magazine casting, and a girl that I shot with at the Don'tBlink Magazine photoshoot about 3-4 weeks ago. I walked around and socialized with the party guests all night and met some really nice people. Daughtry kicked off the party with a performance. As the evening progressed I was a Monster energy drink girl for about 30 minutes, an unofficial ring girl during the TNA Wresting Match, and just basically a bull-shiter with nerds and geeks alike. It was such a cool experience to be inside an invitation-only party with all kinds of famous people, and all my drinks were free! The 7 hours in heels was kind of harsh on my feet, though.

I only wish I had some business cards / comp cards on hand to distribute since there were directors, producers, actors, and agents there.

***Note to self: have cards made

Saturday
A good friend just gave me 2 Professional passes to ComicCon, so the roommate and I headed down to the SD Convention Center. This wasn't a modeling gig, but I kind of turned it into one anyway. I went decked out in my Elektra costume, and all day long I stopped to pose for pictures with visitors and other costume-wearing-folks. A lady even approached me and asked me if I would let her cameraman take a picture of me for Hustler Magazine. Apparently, they compile a bunch of photos of the Hottest Girls of Comic Con, and she said it will be out in January 2010. Possibly two magazines in less than a week??? Pinch me...

Now all I have to do is religiously scan thru Flickr / Google images / Photobucket / any other image hosting site I can find & look for pictures of myself. I hope there's some good ones so I can steal them and add them to my portfolio. Even little kids had their pictures taken with me - I'm beginning to think I'm a camera-whore. ha! ha!


Wow! it's almost 3.30am now...I better try to sleep. Supposed to go to SeaWorld tomorrow with my roommate Matt and his girl. Damn, these late nights are messing with my sleep cycle. But I know it's worth it!